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Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Insecure Writer's Wednesday





This is my first blog post for May, so 


I went back through my posts from the first year I blogged. That was interesting because I'd forgotten all about them. It was kind of like finding little presents scattered over the years. Here's one that I did back in May of  2010. 


Okay, someone go find April and bring it back. I didn't get anything done I had on my list, the list which I can't find, but know has important stuff waiting to be done.



Some poetry for May:

Clouds over
Tree-dotted hillsides
I lick dust from dry lips
And run on to escape
The whir of defeat


That must have been a day I'd bumped into some rejection and I suffered an INSECURITY attack. I still like the idea of escaping the whir of defeat. I should expand on that.


As I went through those old posts, I discovered that somehow things haven't changed. I'm still trying to keep up with my list. I'm still losing that list. I'm still forgetting what was important enough to take the time to write it down. Hmm. Seems I'm getting OLDER, but I'm not getting any better! Do I have any others out there in the same situation?







29 comments:

  1. Oh I hear ya. I too am not getting younger and there is so much more I want to do. I still keep a list with priorities often shuffled around. I often lose the list and find it and then am left thinking what was I thinking? You are not alone in that.

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  2. The mind is the first thing to go. I think!
    Think I'd be afraid to go back and look at my older posts.

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  3. Speaking of insecurity-I would definitely be too afraid to revisit old blog posts. Something tells me I'd cringe. But as far as change goes, I've always felt that the proverb "the more things change, the more they stay the same" rings true.

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  4. Revisiting old posts helps us to see some of our weakness, our broken promises, our incomplete lists.

    Giggling at the April post.

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  5. I have the same aha moments. Yes as a writer we will all be insecure. I do wonder about the authors that seem to come off extremely confident, but through watching them over time, you realize that they to are vulnerable.

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  6. Insecurity is part and parcel of the creative life, to be sure. But what other life would we want to live?

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  7. The whir of defeat is a fantastic line. I hate the R. It can make us feel ... the whir of defeat. :) I just write things on my calendar now on my desk. If I write it elsewhere, I lose it. I also bought an eraser board I can stick magnets on. So I can stick notes on it and scribble on it. That helps, too.

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  8. Going back and looking at your old posts was a great idea. Isn't it amazing to look back. I think instead of looking at it as nothing changes- think of it as- you are very consistent! :) I put post its all over the place so I can see them stuck to the side of my computer- and then I can take them down when I have finished the "to do" item. Good luck!
    ~Jess

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  9. Hi, I saw your comment on Peaches' blog and identified with it. I watched my Mum die last year. It certainly was a rollercoaster, one that I've not quite recovered from yet.

    I too have just finished the A to Z. It was fun, wasn't it, but a bit manic AND I too now have so many lists and half finished manuscripts that I don't know where to begin.
    Rosalind Adam is Writing in the Rain

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  10. Made me smile. I have a journal that has my thoughts and my to-do list, so I could never lose it. I used to be someone who could multi-task and accomplish plenty. Now, not so much. I get tired faster and can't focus as long. I'm learning to go with that flow, even though I don't like it.
    karen

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  11. Well, see, I'm not smart enough to write things down and then I don't have to lament what I didn't accomplish! ;)

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  12. I look back at my old posts and...yikes. :D

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  13. I love that you write in longhand.

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  14. You have lovely handwriting! I think you are forgetting...What was the question? Julie

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    1. I hope what I've got has been contagious. I'm off to find a memory pill. I'll be right back.

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  15. I don't know what you mean about getting older and forgetting stuff.... hang on.... what was I going to say....?

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  16. Me, me. I spend half of every day searching for reminder notes because I've forgotten what I'm supposed to do. :)

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    1. Have you tried writing on the back of your hand? I resorted to that once and I was rather pleased I didn't lose my notes until I took a shower that night. :-)

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  17. Ah, to do lists are the sign of brilliant creative and passionate people. (I write them everyday:)

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    1. Well, then you're at the right blog. Look at all these brilliant, creative and passionate people who have stopped in to say hello.

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  18. Yes, lists. They're long and never complete. But some days making that list helps me identify what's most important. And some days THAT gets done! A writer proposed "Make It Different Friday" (a day to tackle the most difficult task on your list). Every other day, follow your normal writing routine, but Friday, make it different. That scene that you postponed writing. The fridge that needs cleaning out. The mending basket. How quickly we move from writing to daily distractions! I think I need your Weds Insecure Writers Group!!!!

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    1. I absolutely love this idea, Beth. It's great.

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  19. Ah, but the older we get, the longer those to-do lists become. I kind of look forward to retirement when all I have to do is watch Price is Right and complain the kids never call. lol

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  20. Such a fun post. And yes, I can relate...sometimes:)

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  21. Awww growing more mature is a great thing!! Perspectives changes - maybe the list just needs adjusting! Yay! :-) Take care
    x

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  22. A fun post! And yes, I also identify with forgetting and lists! LOL!

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  23. I love the way you write. I participated in the insecure writers support group in this May. I wanted to visit the site and visit more blogs. But everytime I try, Google Chrome says, the site is not safe anymore and has malicious software which can ruin my computer.Anyone got the same message?
    My blog is http://www.bindu.ca

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  24. Very interesting post and indeed a good question too.
    I could relate it some area.
    Good post
    Keep writing and keep inform
    Phil

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